Today went completely different than I expected and I am working on letting that happen without completely losing my mind. This morning I awoke completely overwhelmed by anxiety. I thought about the boys and was worried they felt neglected. I normally have a list of things I go through to really work myself into an anxiety frenzy. We got home from running errands and there were both of my boys home waiting for me. I was at a bit of a loss as I had other plans and was not expecting them home so early and yet I knew I really needed to see them. I dropped my guy off so he could do his mega miles and then spent the afternoon with my boys.
Fortunately we can talk and I told them how I was feeling and my fears that I was ignoring them. They reminded me that it was all summer went and once the school year started we would be back to normal. They both has a great summer and were sad it was over. It was nice, we laughed and talked and for the first time I felt just a little better. Maybe I would have a nice vacation after all.
So plans for tomorrow. My guy will drop me off and I will do my run in the morning, run my errands, have lunch with an old friend. This gets me to mid afternoon. I have several options at this point depending on how I am feeling 1) going to a coffee shop and reading 2) going to the MIT pool and swimming for a bit 3) 1 & 2 is my best bet for tomorrow as I made plans for dinner at 7 so I do not have oodles of time. I am looking forward to the day and it will keep me out of my laptop and feeling good about myself with a fun night planned as well.
The big question is still Tuesday but the good news is I have all day tomorrow to figure it out.
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