Great start to the week

Wow so much went on in my brain during my run I wish I had a recorder that was just piping in straight to text.  I would love to read how I think rather than just remembering it all.  The most awesome news is I had a good run, not a great run but a solid good run.   Can you say 7.28 miles!!

I felt good for a lot of the run and felt better about myself after the run (things that normally do not occur).  On the down side, the last two or three miles I was leaking pee which sucked (sorry about the TMI).  I wish I was a guy because getting off the trail and squatting is just not realistic but I could totally turn my back on the world.  I swear sometimes my bladder has a secret pocket of pee that it likes to disperse at the most awkward times.

I noticed something really interesting towards the end of my run - other than the pee.  I started to actually think "you know I can do this" and have a little faith in myself and then I would take like 10 more steps and stop and walk for a bit and then start running again.  I could never decide if I was stopping because my body was wiped out or because I was thinking about my body being wiped out.  It does feel like I just have this huge running mental block and today I may have slipped through a little of it.   I can not be totally foolish as I know I am not in great shape either so it is hard to know if I am just being hard on myself or if I was psyching myself out.   It was an interesting phenomenon to notice though that the less I thought about my run, the more I could run and the moment I thought about it I shut down.