After Ragnar and my work trip, the morning I wake up with a raging sore throat and a pounding headache and cramping (love being a girl). I can't sleep any more or at least my back wants me to get up and sit differently as it is done with being in bed. I come into the living room and the trees out the window are starting to change and the sun is shining. It is the first time I have seen a pretty day since LAST sunday.
The boys have already started to stir. One has work and the other has football. My guy is still sleeping and I will have to go wake him up soon to get the day going. We are going to take the dog to the dog park and let him wrestle out some of his energy and then go to C's football game. After that I am not sure.
I did something crazy last night that I kind of regret but on the other hand thing desperate times call for desperate measures. I signed up for that vegan/gluten free cleanse. Its insane. I have had 3 friends do it and they honestly rave about the weight they lose and the way they feel. My body is starting to look like a squirrel storing up for winter and I cannot seem to get myself motivated to do anything. I told myself Wednesday I was not going to drink until Chicago and then promptly drank Thursday and Friday. I have been watching (just watching not changing) what I eat - only to learn I am having a love affair with the potato and its starchy cousins.
Anyway this crazy thing starts on Monday October 18th and goes for 30 days and I will just have to see if it helps or digs the hole deeper. I am starting to feel out of place of myself...I am not sure where I belong...comes from too much damn introspection without progress. My work I am the total odd woman out....mainly because I am a woman and the other because I represent the anti-future.
Wow I feel crappy.
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