Sunday morning.  I decided to lessen the reigns on the cleanse a bit as neither one of us were feeling good enough to say that the cleanse was good for our bodies.  We have not dropped it all together but are going to try to add a few things in to improve the way we feel.  We had eggs with beans this morning and it was tasty and filling.   I am hoping the eggs provide a little more protein or substance to give me some energy during our run.  My thought is the gluten free goes but the low carbohydrate remains - which just means that I can eat bread but I do not make it a main part of my 1200 calories.   We added eggs and I have not figured out what to transform the Vegan aspect of the diet to but we broke it with having eggs this morning.   The idea of this cleanse was to feel better and remodulate our food intake.  Given that last night at 8pm we felt about 100 years old, some how I think that is not really working for us.  However, it has significantly helped with me as far as looking at what I eat and making real choices.

There was a quote up the other day that rang true "It is our decisions and not our desires that determine our destination" - Andy Stanley.  I figured out he is a religious guy and was probably taking it down a different alley but still I totally related.  It all comes down to the tension of desires - the pleasure versus long term results.  Maybe this month will help us not only rethink our decisions but help us learn to make better decisions.  The real purpose of this whole experiment is figuring out how to live balancing what we want NOW and what we want later for our long term success.  I do not under any circumstances want to just throw those 6 pounds back on to my body so I need to keep making good choices.

We did put together a list races that we would like to do in 2011 and it is a little scary and overwhelming.  I ran the Chicago marathon on pure determination with no training and no real health.  I still doubt I should actually count it as a marathon completed but there were names after me.  If I want to do what we are planning for 2011, I actually have to be in shape and I am terrified that I am not actually able to physically accomplish our goals.  The big goal is the Goofy in 2012 Disney - which is running a half and full marathon back to back.  The rest of the year is litered with Marathons, relay races, obstacle courses and currently one triathlon.  The triathlon adds a whole another level of complexity as I have to really be able to swim.  I am supposed to start that training next week as I will need to regularly train otherwise that will never be successful.  The whole plan means making a commitment to my training to pull it off and honestly I have never actually been that fit or that consistant with my work outs so what if I can't (but really that is what if I don't) how will I disappoint myself and my guy.  Is this amount of work something I really want?  However, just pretend for a minute I actually did it....WOW what a crazy year it would be and how proud would I be of myself.