Stew keeps reminding me to live and love the here and now. He is right I probably should not exercise when I am pissed off but sometimes it helps to face the demon right in the eye and make a stand. Last night I did NOT want to exercise and wanted a way out of working towards my goals. By doing it regardless of my own voices desired I looked the devil in the eye...and survived - although it was not pretty - ask My Guy if you have doubts.
The trick is that I have created habits that prevent me from doing the things I want to accomplish. I have well defined scripts that get right at the heart of me and eat away and my motivation and persistence. The now is great, but I keep selling tomorrow for now and am disappointed tomorrow when I could not finish my marathon or my half marathon or a 5 Miler. The problem with goals is how much do you want them? Should they get in the way of today? If you live your life now, can you plan for tomorrow? Should you?
There is stuff I want to do even though right now I am doing pretty well. My life is actually very good right now minus a few minor bumps. I just want to get some of these thing I have always wanted to do done...the reason I have not done them...they are really hard. The easy stuff I already managed to knock off the list already. The stuff that is still on has some strong kick ass martial art type demons protecting them...people it is going to be a bumpy ride.
How about this; make a beatles playlist and when you exercise tonight, listen to that. It may distract you enough to get through the tormenting sweat. Think about what you are going to have for dinner sitting on the great lawn. I am making a watermelon salad.
ReplyDeleteand here is how I am going to do it (as it was told to me by Jeff this afternoon)...
"a bed of arugula... arugula lettuce with big chunks of watermelon in it. then add some candied walnuts. Cala's adds goat cheese, but I like good bleu cheese. finally, make a honey line juice dressing. Two parts honey and one part line juice - that's it. The contrast between the bitter arugula and the sweet honey and watermelon is outta sight!"
what i am trying to do is to get your mind onto something else. something to think about WHILE you exercise.
My last comment of the day is: if this is your first marathon, go into it having done everything you can do to be successful. And success is not primarily a particular speed/pace/time, it is doing what you set out to do, the thing that enabled you to get to that speed/pace/time (your training). Success is about meeting your goals, not exceeding the course record (yet). This may be the last marathon you run, and if so, make sure it is of something you are proud. If you blow off the training now, you will run your race and finish, but you will be promising yourself for the last two miles you will do better 'next time'. Run this race as if there were no next time, no apologies. My football coach used to always say, "no coulda's, shoulda's or wish I had's". And as crazy as that dude was (he was nuts), that stuck with me to this day.
TheBob
PS He also used the terms, 'reckless abandon', 'balls out', and 'kill a mosquito with an axe'. he was later let go because he beat up a referee during one of our football games. after that, he coached from behind a tree in the woods next to the practice field (he was not allowed to be around the team); our captain had to run out to get the next play we would run.
balls out
TheBob