Mind the gap

Up early and I am at a loss.  I checked facebook, read my blog feeds, checked work and my mail, browsed Reddit and in the background I am watching a movie and in the end I am just not sure what to do any more.

When you grow up, who are you suppose to be?  All the hours hanging with the kids and now the kids have literally left the building.  Work used to fill the gaps but now there is nothing but gaps and work doesn't have enough legs to hold up my life alone.

I whine about this a great deal ...the loss of of purpose.  The feeling that I do not know who I am really.  How can that be?  Over 40 - had a lifetime of experiences, two beautiful children, a respectable job and I feel lost?   That is ridiculous really...but I guess this is what they call a mid-life crisis.  Things are put in a different perspective and you suddenly wonder.. about it all.