friday morning ramblings

Ok. Ok.  I told myself I would try to write every day.  After yesterday I feel like I have written so much I do not have an original ideal in my head.  I finished Day 5 of the Mind Alchemy and skyrocketed all the way to day 7 - pick your inspirational theme song and that will have to wait until this weekend for me to sort through.  Day 5 was all about outcomes in the various areas of your life and I found the exercise difficult and very useful.  I am feeling like I am reestablishing myself in my life a little - don't get me wrong I still haven't exercised a drop - but my food habits and my general life intention is feeling much more focused.  I have been thinking about posting my intentions on my blog but I cannot tell if it is too personal -- too much exposure of myself.   I only have a few friends that read this - including my guy - so it is not like the whole world would read it - but they could.   It is not like I am going to run for political office and this will come back to haunt me but I am not sure I want to be a Reddit meme either.   I want to post the outcomes, the vision statements and the pictures that I collected for each subject or maybe a grouping of subjects but that will take more time than I have this morning so stay tuned this weekend as I contemplate my own personal exposure.

One of the other exercises (Day 6) was writing up my perfect day.  I enjoyed that exercise very much and would like to try to emulate some of my perfect day this weekend.  Friday night is swim night perhaps followed by sushi again.  I will enjoy that and would like not to get too hammered so I can focus and be productive Saturday.  Saturday is busy preparing for Mexican night at our friends house.  I wanted to do tamales but the party would have to be on Sunday for us to have the time to put it together so we are going with a slightly less aggressive plan.  Sunday is the Lamb Jam which is a bunch of chef's competing for best of dishes (there are about 4 categories), with wineries and breweries.  It will be great fun and very easy to get distracted into gluttony but I am hoping we can keep it fun without destructive.  There are several things on the list that I would like to do but always feel like we run out of time for:  gutter and chandelier replacement investigation, puzzle time, reading time and god hate me for saying this - maybe a run?  We definitely need to fit in dog park time and maybe two times during the three days.

One of the things I feel I miss from our weekends is a sense of accomplishment and purpose.  We have nothing important to do so we end up accomplishing very little. When I think about the value of my life and that all these moments matter and should not be wasted frivolously, I realize I need to take control of the time without managing every second.   Have you ever had a small task to do but a long time to do it and you end up rushing at the very last moment because it felt like you had forever and why not? It is so different than when you are busy and a new task comes your way and you either do it immediately or schedule it and gets done. Our weekends are big open fields with one or two obstacles.   It is funny, but I want more "work" to do - but work being defined as anything (home repair, a class, exploration, adventure) just to make sure we do not squander the hours.