Yes I can

Tonight my goal is swimming.  I wish I had studied my video more but I think I remember enough to try to practice.  The goal is at least 9 laps - which means 18 back and forth.  But according to the guide I was reading it is much more important to have good form or purposeful practice of the exact stroke.  I have to remember the decision has already been made but it is more about the execution of the goal.

I have been trying to figure out the goal for tomorrow.  So it is supposed to be twelve degree tomorrow which does not really seem like prime running weather.  I am not sure I have enough warm weather gear to be out in that temperature.  I would like to run because it would keep my on my training schedule which was a good one and this weather is not supposed to really let up any time soon.  My biggest gap is probably a ski mask or something for my face.  I also fear the freezing cold I will be for the rest of the day.  The other option is doing a P90x work out, but it is not the same as running, but it is better than absolutely nothing.   I am terrified to not have made a decision because leaving it up to the morning makes it the same as making the decision not to do anything.

Before I go to bed, I will have decided what I do tomorrow.  The time is now.  This week every decision matters.  If I slip and if I fall I will not give up, but I have been using bad decisions as excuses for too long.   I am in control of my future, my decisions and I need to take a stand for myself.  Self-loathing and failure is no way to live day in and day out.