Monday, June 13, 2011

trying to find my way back

Its been awhile and right now I am a little at a loss for words.  I have an answer - sort of - to my extreme stomach pain - gallstones.  Well I am not sure I believe that is the sole cause but in the end it all comes down to diet.  High fat - such as cheese and cream are supposed to exacerbate any gallstone issues.  Funny I thought I was just becoming lactose intolerant and in some ways I guess that is what it means.  My body is starting to suck at dealing with high in fat foods.  Alcohol too.  I have noticed a serious impact when drinking vs not about how my stomach/gut feel.  Oddly it does not really stop me nor have I been compelled to change my diet.

I read about healthy organic whole foods - rather than processed garbage - and I totally agree.  I think about making foods that support the environment and are better for me and yet I am paralyzed into cooking and eating better foods.  It all feels so overwhelming.   So many choices, recipes and work and it is so much easier to have a quick prepared high fat, high calorie, emotionally satisfying - kicking my body's ass meal.  Wouldn't it be interesting to challenge myself to only eat non packaged fresh fruits and veggies.  To make myself cook and eat "whole foods" for a while.  I know I would feel better in the end.  Something to ponder.

Speaking of challenges something else I have been pondering is to ban myself from the endless hours of the internet so I can actually get some things done.  Limited internet time is something that I think would be good for me as it would allow me to stop using the distraction of the time wasted lost in the interwebs.  I am amazed at how fast time can fly and 15 minutes of meditation can pass in a blink of an eye and I lose hours like I am breathing.  

Lots of thoughts but I am still trying to find my head after my gallstone debacle.  Tomorrow is another day. 

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