shoes are made for running (jogging, walking, crawling)

It is insane.  I have spent more time agonizing over the Chicago Marathon than I could have ever believed.  I know why, so it is no real mystery.  I have signed up for stuff and then just conveniently forgotten about it and never felt guilt because I just let it go.  I did not take in to account My Guy not living up to my usual slacky M.O. and now I am stuck with facing this "habit" of setting goals and not taking them seriously and bagging out at the last minute.  You add My Guys family coming to support him and I am a complete wreck.  Talk about humiliation.

I actually tried googling "I haven't trained but should I try to run a marathon anyway" and strangely there was no valid results - shocking I know.  A few weeks ago we had a 25K and I said to My Guy how ridiculous it was for me to run that race with as little training and during that race I vacillated between I can do the marathon to there is NO friggin way I could run the marathon.

I am 20 days away and last night I decided I am going to give it my best try.  My goal is to finish before they sweep me up or just close down the course.  It will be almost impossible to complete and will be a brutal sight and it will not really be anything to be proud of IF I manage to walk across the finish.  It will be a wakeup call about what I can do versus what I sign up to do.  I need to figure out what i really want to try to do and accomplish and stick with that.

I guess in the mean time..I have 19 days until I commit suicide pretending I can go 26 Miles in less than 6 hours.  Hell I got myself into this...now I gotta get myself out.